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|Sunday, October 3rd, 2010|
|I've been depressed latley, I am hoping things get better for me
I used to post alot here, I guess it was different before the rise of facebook, myspace and other annoying services, I don't even know anyone that uses myspace anymore, I think I still like some of the old school things though I need to explore more of the webs but it gets tough since I've been poor lately.
It is unfortunate when you are poor though, I've been poor for the last forever, there's been some good spans of time when I've had some good jobs or contract work but lately its been tough trying to make it. For alot of the last many years there's been some tough days, when I'm low on food or just depressed, it makes it really hard to get into the swing of things. I keep on wanting to do things but I get so depressed it makes it tough, sometimes I feel so sad it's like I've left part of my life drift away since I am not living it up.
I love the times when things are great, I have had alot of great things in the last decade, it is funny how much time has passed, I remember the beginning of 2000, and before, there was alot of tough times then I recall. I always wanted to do more role playing and enjoy star trek and rpgs more even make a business out of them or get a good web comic going. I always was envious of big web comics, there are so many, so many that suck though, maybe all the good ones end short and disappear, I still want to publish a book of all my artwork someday, I hope to do that.
There's alot of happy ones back then too, sometimes I wonder what made me so happy, but I guess I can tell, when you get older the cost of living is a bit more, I mean I don't really have any big expense, but it's tough, there's still alot of costs and it's hard to take them all on when you have little money, but I've been doing that to myself for the last decade, I keep on making a little bit of money then it seems to drift out while I just try to maintain a budget or I just break even.
Sometimes I just want to go back in time and resume on a good day, like a good save on a RPG, right now it's just tough as I have little money and wish I had alot more for life.
My LJ icons are awesome, I miss them, I used to photo whore all the time on this, it was fun. I really need to post some new pictures on here and other networks, I wonder how long LJ will be around for, it's funny how the internet moves.
I wish I wasn't so depressed though, I hope things turn out better this week and Temporal Manifest Destiny does come true, lately with this economy I find my self casting magical spells of money creating, winning, earnings and plain out miracles for me, I could use them. I really need a girlfriend too, I hate to while these things should already be true. I dream alot about a good girlfriend, I've been dating off and on for awhile but still I seem to be getting lots of stupid hoes, hate dumb bitches, lucky there are some few girls out there, but none ever want to date me, or they want someone less nerdy, I always wanted a nice girl that was rich to date me, I think that would be awesome, but implausible, as I see time, I feel like someday when I have enough money I'll train a girl to be a good lover since that's the order of the world.
I've been dreaming too long of what a dream girl would be like, it's always fun to talk about them when they are fun, I used to talk about alot of old girlfriends on here that weren't half bad. I wish they weren't so mean to me, I really need a girl that cares about my real feeling and thoughts, it's rare to find someone who even cares.
|Thursday, April 1st, 2010|
Busy working and watching star trek, still in the early parts, I should put up what I'm watching from time to time, right now its 1x06 TNG Where no one has gone before, Voyager sure could of used a traveler, that is for sure, it's funny though he brings the Enterprise-D out further than Voyager by millions of light years compared to Voyager's pull from the caretaker at 70,000 light years from the badlands.
It be interesting to see Voyager go millions of light years to get home or maybe they just should of summoned Wesley and the Traveler to go home.
Oddly enough I need to re download more of DS9, I seem to be missing the first few seasons due to hard drive space, I have begun watching the opening episodes of Voyager too, I will have to comment on these more, I like how both the third an d fourth episode deals with temporal issues, the 3rd a rather basic one where voyager gets stuck in the event horizon of some collapsed star and the fourth where a explosion of very dangerous energy destory's the planet and create temporal rifts on the planet.
I like the other earlier episode before this where Picard tells data about Shelrok homes and then he's smoking a pipe in the conference room in the next scene while helping Troi and Riker with the plot, it's funny how they got him started on that early on in Season one.
|Monday, March 29th, 2010|
It is my birthday, : D I only really post this on the 29th, gotta love it, I'm 29 on the 29th : D
|Friday, July 17th, 2009|
Lately My job has been going better than I thought, I am really beginning to enjoy it, I am finding there is alot of opportunity there it is really awesome there. At first it was making me a little grumpy but now i am starting to enjoy it alot. There is alot of good things going on there, I am hoping it will make me rich soon, I am getting alot of good feelings from the staff there they are really sweet to me and I like them alot.
I remember writing that I was having a hard time, but latley it's been easier, the hours are better and I am finding more free time to enjoy things.
I am really enjoying Final Fantasy IV the after yeras, the first story with Ceidore was somewhat weak but the rest of the game is good. I need to play more RPGs as I have fallen behind on them and they are really good games.
|Saturday, April 18th, 2009|
Actually I was wrong about my brother, he's better than i Thought, there's been issues, but he's actualyl alot cooler than i thought, I think its the roomate that gets to me, and i think sometimes he gets my brother luke to get on my case, I kinda feel bad writting about my brother that that way, I need to not let the evil roommate get between us, sometimes the roomate is nice too, but he bugs me too much.
work is going well, how are people : )
|Tuesday, April 7th, 2009|
I started a full time job today, it is awesome. I will tell more later. For once I feel okay : )
|Wednesday, February 25th, 2009|
|I need work it's been a tough few months
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|Wednesday, January 14th, 2009|
I have a really bad job now. I haven’t had one so bad in my life. I had to take something to get by, it was so bad my family was getting ready to kick me out unless I did something big, I did it and got this job, but now this job is getting really bad.
It’s a rather abusive workplace. They make me work hellish hours and consider it nothing since a few of them spend a long time there not doing much just chatting there.
I’m hoping to get a better job soon, I’ve been trying to get at some better places latley while going to this job. There are so many bad people there who just want to make sure I’m not having a good time, they are rather crazy, and scary.
|Monday, October 20th, 2008|
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|Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008|
Final Fantasy IV is out for the DS, YAY!
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|Saturday, July 5th, 2008|
My grandmother talked to Arnold Schwarzenegger today about the fires in Goleta, wow!
|Tuesday, June 17th, 2008|
DAMMIT BOSTON LOOSE,
Someday Iwant to be so awesome I will be like Jack Nileson sp. in cosplay as many things, hee : )
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|Monday, March 17th, 2008|
| "Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars."
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